I’ll be honest with you, I feel like this pregnancy is creeping along. It’s a bit annoying because I know once he arrives the time will pass with incredible speed. I’m not sure how or why it works that way, but it does, I’ve been there and I know how quickly everything changes.
From newborn to infancy to toddlerhood. I feel like I merely blinked my eyes and life moved forward at an alarming rate.
But, time passing slowly isn’t a bad thing. Not at all. It’s nice to feel like time is dragging, I know our days as a family of three are limited. We’ve made it our goal for the new year to stay home more, enjoy more dinners at home, play in the playroom more often, we’ve adopted a more structured nightly routine. We’re all thriving in this environment, it seems to be just the thing we needed.
It’s easy to admit that I have a little fear moving forward. How will this enormous dynamic shift change our family? If I’m honest, I’m mostly worried about Braylen.
She’s never known anything other than this life as a family of three, she gets all of the attention, she is our focus. In just three short months, things are going to change in a major way for her and I don’t know that there is any way I can actually prepare her for what is to come.
I’m not worried about the tough infant stage. The late night feedings and sleep schedules. I’m worried about dividing my time between the two of them. Which seems silly, I know. But, it’s something that I’ve never had to do. It’s also something that she’s never experienced.
For the past four years she’s had us all to herself. She’s never been jealous or acted out to get our attention, because she’s never had to vie for our attention. It’s always been hers.
It is my hope that she falls into this role seamlessly, and she probably will. She’s smart and she loves to feel like she is helping with anything we do around the house. It’s up to me not to become completely consumed by this new role, but to embrace this change and make sure she feels included.
In reality, I know there will be times that require extra patience from her (and myself). Perhaps instead of worrying, I should look forward to those, because we could all use a little more patience. In the end, this is an enormous blessing for our family, and I know these feelings will subside once the baby arrives. The unknown is toughest part and the anticipation sometimes gets the best of me.
Apparently, my lesson in patience has already started. This is all normal, right? In the end, it’ll all work out, I’m certain. I’m also certain that seeing the two of them together may cause my heart to explode with love and gratitude. And for the reason, I can’t wait for that day.
I answered several questions about the nighttime routine and chore chart in the comments yesterday. I’ll also get a more detailed post together next week.