As Braylen gets older I realize more and more that I spent way too much time dwelling on just how quickly time passes and wanting to soak each moment up for that reason. No matter what we were doing I always had the idea of fleeting time pressing persistently in my head. I thought I needed to soak up those precious moments because they would pass by and I would miss out. And while that is completely and entirely true, I realize now there was a major flaw in my mindset.
I was soaking up the moments as her mother because they were precious, yes. But attaching that little tag to them, mentally reminding myself and dwelling on the word fleeting was the problem. It’s hard to really enjoy the moment when you’re half in the moment and half worried about the future.
Braylen’s at an age now where she thinks I can fix whatever is wrong with her. And let’s be real, everything that has come along I’ve been able to fix. A two-year-olds problems pale in comparison to real problems, so I get to be a super hero multiple times each day.
She takes something apart… “Ohh nooo, fix it, mommy.”
I put it back together… “Thanks, mommy!!”
She takes the lid off of something and can’t get it back on… “Ohh nooo, fix it, Mommy!”
I put the lid back on… “Thanks, mommy!!”
She can’t figure something out… “Ohh nooo, fix it, Mommy!”
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Kat says
You are a beautiful writer, Jennifer. I, too, struggle with living in the moment and worrying if it is escaping from me. I’m working on the whole worrying less concept, but it’s such a hard thing to overcome!
Shannon Dew says
Love this! I am guilty of the same thing. It started when she was born and someone said “wait till her first day of kindergarten”. Really? She was like a week old!!! Stop it already! Gah they grow up quick enough, I don’t need to think about kindergarten right now!
Michelle says
Great post. Just had one of those sad moments a few weeks ago when I was reflecting on hurtful things a former friend said to me and then looked at my sweet and innocent little girl sleeping and wished that I could keep her from having to experience hurtful things being said to her. I hope to always be her super hero.
{annie_loo} says
Well said. I feel these same feelings too. I think it’s part of being a mommy. But, you’re right…TODAY you are her super hero…and today is what’s important! We aren’t guarenteed tomorrow, much less 10 years down the road, so just live for today!
You have a sweet heart Jennifer. She’s lucky to have a mom like you!
Bethany Hutton says
You seriously amaze me! I love this post!
Taylor says
Such an amazing post. You have such a gift with words!!! And I can completely relate, I like being the super hero now but I know it won’t always be that way.
Cajun Cowgirl says
Such a wonderful message within this post, one that I will hold with me these next few days/months/years.
I think what’s more is that because you are embracing your role as super hero now, she’ll know that in the future although you can’t necessarily fix things, you can comfort her through it.
Lindsey says
Jennifer- this is another one of your most fabulous posts that speaks right to me!! I am soo grateful for these because I feel the same way and it is so difficult for me to not think ahead as well. I constantly catch myself saying “wow are we in for it 10 years from now when the girls are both hormonal and what not” instead of treasuring the moment that I have eating an ice cream cone with 85%of it being worn vs eaten- lol! Thank you so much!
Kari Beth says
Love this post!
angelaluvnlife says
My son is so into bubble guppies. He calls it Buppies ๐ so cute and gets so mad if I try to change the channel to one of my shows or something else. Gotta love this age.
Kendall says
I hope you know what an incredible writer you are. You speak from the heart and TO the heart–thank you ๐ xo
Perfectly Imperfect says
so very well said. i’m with you; i tend to think to far ahead and then i get myself all worked up for no reason. i’m going to remember this; that right now, i can fix it all. and i’m going to revel in it.
JenBye1104 says
I love this post, Jennifer! I often think about this with my own children. I worry about them and I always say “what if this happens” and often it is something negative and I am forgetting about living in the now and enjoying all of the little memories everyday. Thank you for reminding me to enjoy the moment and worry about things as they come!